Sorry for the lack of updates and posts, been busy. Should hopefully be on track from here on out. Not that anyone reads this crap anyway.
The bible study has sort of fallen off the wagon the last few weeks, which has probably lapsed into months. The original fellow who I’ve been studying with (Ashton) had said he was moving to Swift Current, SK to help out a Great Hall (their name for churches) out there. It at first seemed fabricated as it seemed odd, and the previous week I had argued with someone he brought with him (an older guy named Al) about evolution, which I won’t get into right now. However I don’t totally feel that this was the reason, so will take his word for it, as I have no real reason to doubt him (although I feel trust must be earned, you don’t start at zero).
So, instead of Ashton I’m going to be studying with a guy named John who is probably in his late 30’s and was a Roman Catholic for X amount of years before converting (who can blame him, the Catholic Church is horrid). However, for the first few weeks of this transition, John simply didn’t show up. I had thought maybe I scared them away, and this was their way of shying away politely. This was not the case however as John finally showed up last week.
At the time however we were in the process of having our windows replaced. This turned out horribly I might add, with severe damage to my desk, but that story and images will appear later. I had given John my number and he called me the following week to see if I was free, we were again still in the process of getting everything cleaned up, and this past Monday he would have came, but there was a holiday. I’m hoping he’ll call and come over this following Monday to continue our lesson.
Many people think it’s severely strange for me to want to take this free home bible study, and I don’t blame them. However, the bible and religiosity is a very interesting subject for me. It encompasses our fears and hopes and what we want from life and society, smashes it together into a very inconsistent blob of thoughts and ideas, that everyone acts and truly believes is cohesive and good. It’s a phenomenon that has touched everyone, whether directly or indirectly and will probably continue for generations to come.
The bible study with others is a lot easier to cope with than alone, mostly because I interpret things VERY different than believers. For Example:
(Isaiah 45:7, KJV) – “I form the light, and create darkness: I make peace, and create evil: I the LORD do all these things.”
I’ll read this passage, and to me it speaks volumes about there being no Satan, Devil,Evil Spirit, whatever you’d like to call it as God creates all things, Good and Evil. Which reflects back to the serpent in the Garden of Eden. God created the serpent, and with his infinite wisdom knew what the serpent would do. God is directly responsible for all the horrors on Earth.
However, when I state this, apparently I have it all wrong. They will then state that in many other verses it states that “God is love” 1 John 4:8, KJV) and that God is “not a God that hath pleasure in wickedness” (Psalm 5:4, KJV) among many others. What irks me about this however, is that the verse that states he creates evil is supposedly from God Himself, while the others are people talking about God.
So this is the reason I prefer the bible study, it’s simply because I can’t get this whole doublethink thing, and I really want to be able to understand what they understand, to develop better reasoning (if even possible) for why they do and say the things they do. Just trying not to lose faith in humanity.
On a semi-related note, I may start reading the bible cover to cover and blog about it in another ‘segment’ of this blog. Properly tagged so people (or more importantly I) can filter them in or out as they please.